Tomorrow was Sam’s due date. I don’t have many words to describe how I feel today or how I will feel tomorrow. Instead I’ve decided to share pictures of my growing belly over the last 40 weeks. I am beyond thankful to have carried Sam with me for 36 of them.
During the last three weeks I have regretted the complaints I made as a pregnant woman. To my friends who are still pregnant.. your hips may hurt, you may be exhausted but feel blessed you have a baby. Enjoy each heartbeat.
The last picture below Ted took of me on May 18th. Six days before we lost Sam. I was so proud of my growing belly and pulled Ted off the couch to snap the photo. Looking back, I’m not sure why, but I told Ted I specifically wanted to take the picture in Sam’s room ‘in case it was my last’.
I never knew that it would be.
I miss you in every moment, Sam. You brought your Dad and me more joy in 36 weeks than most people experience in a lifetime.
We love you endlessly.
With all my heart, your Mama.