Due Date

   Tomorrow was Sam’s due date.  I don’t have many words to describe how I feel today or how I will feel tomorrow.  Instead I’ve decided to share pictures of my growing belly over the last 40 weeks.  I am beyond thankful to have carried Sam with me for 36 of them.

During the last three weeks I have regretted the complaints I made as a pregnant woman.  To my friends who are still pregnant.. your hips may hurt, you may be exhausted but feel blessed you have a baby.  Enjoy each heartbeat.

The last picture below Ted took of me on May 18th.  Six days before we lost Sam.  I was so proud of my growing belly and pulled Ted off the couch to snap the photo.  Looking back, I’m not sure why, but I told Ted I specifically wanted to take the picture in Sam’s room ‘in case it was my last’.

I never knew that it would be.

I miss you in every moment, Sam.  You brought your Dad and me more joy in 36 weeks than most people experience in a lifetime. 

We love you endlessly.

With all my heart, your Mama.