Flood Yourself with Love.

Recently I was having a conversation with a friend and he asked me how I was with God.  It didn't take much time for me to respond, "For the first time in my life, I'm really not sure."  I shared with him that often times I wonder - why me, to which his voice returns…

Happiness & Normalcy.

I haven't blogged in a couple of weeks.  Mostly because life has kept us busy and that's something to celebrate!  The last few weeks have felt magical.  We flew to Naples, Florida and stayed at Ted's parents house just the two of us.  I didn't realize how refreshing and rejuvenating the trip would be until…

Father’s Day.

Today is Father's Day. Today is Ted's first Father's Day. Today is exactly one month since Sam was born to Jesus. Every Sunday that passes is another week that we are learning to live with the loss of Sam.  Neither Ted or I were particularly excited for this day to come.  With heavy hearts, we…

Painful love.

Some days I just feel empty. Today is one of those days. It's hard to explain the emotional highs and lows we experience as bereaved parents but I might imagine it's something like the highs and lows you experience as  any parent.  Pain that comes flooding in because of your great love for your child. …

God measures life by love.

My life is new. My life is new in a completely different way than I had ever anticipated.  Instead of experiencing a 'new' life together with Sam, Ted and I are living a 'new' life without him.  We had prepared our hearts for all the joy first time parents experience with their babies.  Instead, we trudge forward,…