Tears Like Rain.

I had my hair highlighted yesterday by my girlfriend, Jessica.  I love getting my hair done.  We agreed it’s like a fresh start once you look in the mirror and think to yourself man, my hair looks bad. This morning I woke up determined to make it a good day.  I rose early, showered, fixed my…

Ember to Ashes.

Earlier this week Ted decided it would be a good idea to call our grief counselor and schedule a time to see him.  Jim, our counselor, scheduled us to come in right away.  The last time we saw him, around five months ago, we left our time together open ended because we all agreed Ted…

Day 3 – What It Felt Like.

I've been thinking about today's blog all day.  What It Felt Like - "..give the outside world some insight into what it is like to be a bereaved parent by sharing a certain experience.."  I've been playing over in my mind what feeling is most important to capture this year. Do I share about the…

Day 2 – Who They Are.

Sam Benjamin Newton {May 24, 2015} Our sweetest Sam was born at 36.5 weeks.  He was delivered at six pounds, one ounce. Our Little Lion {September 19, 2016} I miscarried our rainbow baby "lion" at eight weeks pregnant. For both of our babies, who they are is much more than their birth that was simultaneously…

Bleeding with a Broken Heart.

Meet Lion, I've been carrying her {Yes, her.  I will never know but I thought our second baby was a girl.  I thought Sam was a boy.  Call it Mother's intuition.} around with me since yesterday. I've shared before but I'll share again that the day we left the hospital after Sam was born Ted…