I've been writing a lot in my journal this month as opposed to my blog. It's as though the thoughts that fill its pages are somehow too sacred to share. The real grief that ever so often floods my space and takes over my heart. As I inch closer to two years without Sam I…
Tag: Rainbow Baby
The Announcement That Never Came In The Onesie That Still Did.
Here it is. The announcement that never came in the onesie that still did. I remember scanning pages and pages of big brother onesies that fit newborns. Most 'big brother' shirts only come in t-shirt sizes. Most Moms only announce their second child after their first has had time to grow. A black onesie -…
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Bleeding with a Broken Heart.
Meet Lion, I've been carrying her {Yes, her. I will never know but I thought our second baby was a girl. I thought Sam was a boy. Call it Mother's intuition.} around with me since yesterday. I've shared before but I'll share again that the day we left the hospital after Sam was born Ted…
A Bereaved Mother.
Rainbow babies. I don't ever write about them here - or at least I haven't until now. Do you know how to confirm you're not pregnant? By holding the pee stick up to the light. Any glimmer of hope that maybe your eyes seeing with old contacts might be missing a second line will be…
Thinking of Sam 