A Thousand Years.

I've often heard Ted share that a difficult part of his journey as a loss Dad revolves around watching me and the pain that ebbs and flows so easily in my life.  I remember sitting in grief counseling with him one night and he shared, "Abby was just so excited to become a Mom" and…

Flood Yourself with Love.

Recently I was having a conversation with a friend and he asked me how I was with God.  It didn't take much time for me to respond, "For the first time in my life, I'm really not sure."  I shared with him that often times I wonder - why me, to which his voice returns…

On Meditation.

One year ago today I discovered yoga and tonight, meditation. Tonight my yoga teacher started a summer series of a free community meditation wherein we focused on our breath.  We had a few minutes of time leftover after the guided meditation ended for an open discussion on what we experienced during our practice.  I was…

You Are Stronger Than You Think You Are.

This morning I found myself stretching into a longer Virabhadrasana II in response to my teacher lovingly telling me to lengthen myself across my mat. Once I settled back into the pose she said, "You are stronger than you think you are." I awoke wondering what freedom might greet me today. I spent a fun weekend…

When Death Chose Me.

Tonight I had dinner with a dear friend and she asked me how I was doing.  She asked me how I was really doing.  Lately I've found that anyone who ever asks me that question anymore are loss Moms.  I love being asked with sincerity how I really feel.  I looked her in the eyes…

Capture Your Grief – A Self Portrait.

Those of you who are friends with me on Facebook know I attempted to take part in the 'Capture Your Grief' project.  Capture Your Grief is an event hosted in the month of October which is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. There are 31 subjects, one for each day in the month of October. …