Those of you who are friends with me on Facebook know I attempted to take part in the 'Capture Your Grief' project. Capture Your Grief is an event hosted in the month of October which is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. There are 31 subjects, one for each day in the month of October. …
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The Depths of Sadness. The Breadth of Happiness.
I was driving home from work today, crying like I typically do. I've come to realize over the - what's about to be - five months that before Sam died, I really had no concept of the possible depths of my sadness. My greatest hope then, is that I really have no sense of the possible…
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Holidays. Holi-daze.
As cooler temperatures are upon us, fall festivals approaching and the holidays around the corner I can't help but think of Sam. My birthday is in two weeks and I know exactly what I was doing this time last year. Ted took me on a get-away, mini-vacation for the weekend to Madison, Indiana where we…
MamaRoo & Energy.
It's funny what we spend our energy on when we're preparing for the arrival of a baby. I spent all the extra minutes of my day making sure everything was just perfect for Sam when he arrived. Ted likes to joke that I started "nesting" the moment I found out we were pregnant. To a…
Sam lives. Jesus lives.
A couple of weeks ago I was digging under my sink and found these. Before I was pregnant, I never understood why Mamas would take pictures of them, let alone keep them. I always told myself I wouldn't because it sounded strange - but I did. The moment I laid eyes on them again, I cried.…
Baby Newton live.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seculusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. (Psalm 139: 15-16) From…
Sam Benjamin Newton
Sam Benjamin Newton was born at 9:06 A.M. He was a beautifully perfect 6 pounds, 1 ounce & 19 inches long. Ted & I held Sam in the surgical room embracing our short time together as a family of three.
Thinking of Sam 