Seeing the Unseen.

As we grow older we learn that the things we really want for Christmas are not things at all. If I had it my way, Santa would bring me Sam. I took the day off work today to prepare for our annual friends White Elephant Christmas Party.  My morning started by greeting our plumber who…

Tears Like Rain.

I had my hair highlighted yesterday by my girlfriend, Jessica.  I love getting my hair done.  We agreed it’s like a fresh start once you look in the mirror and think to yourself man, my hair looks bad. This morning I woke up determined to make it a good day.  I rose early, showered, fixed my…

Day 4 – Support Circles.

It was the beginning of this year that I really realized how fortunate I am to have my community.  Today's prompt is about our support circles as bereaved parents.  "A friend, family member or organization that has been there for you.."  A particular group that we've found healing in our journey. I'd be amiss if…

Deep Grief and Great Love.

A constant state of emptiness surrounds me. A hole, now larger than the size of Sam ripped open to make room for Lion, exists within me. Before we were discharged from the ER, three different nurses on three different occasions had the lack of bedside manner to wish me a "Happy Early Birthday". They were…

A Thousand Years.

I've often heard Ted share that a difficult part of his journey as a loss Dad revolves around watching me and the pain that ebbs and flows so easily in my life.  I remember sitting in grief counseling with him one night and he shared, "Abby was just so excited to become a Mom" and…

I’m OK.

I saw this photo and found it fitting. I'm broken, it reads. It resonates with me on so many levels.  So often I answer, "I'm okay" when someone asks me how I'm doing.  Most of the time I mean it.  I am okay.  But faintly written on the outskirts of my response is my heart's…

Flood Yourself with Love.

Recently I was having a conversation with a friend and he asked me how I was with God.  It didn't take much time for me to respond, "For the first time in my life, I'm really not sure."  I shared with him that often times I wonder - why me, to which his voice returns…