I Carry You.

I miss you. Really miss you. Sometimes I’m still confused how life ended up this way. Tonight we have a board meeting at your cemetery. That sounds sad. That is sad. I’m not sure it’s fair that we’re members of a cemetery board, let alone your cemetery. A place where we had no choice but…

No one is sent to anyone by accident.

"No one is sent to anyone by accident." I can't sleep. I have a lot on my mind and my brain is refusing to shut itself down tonight. So I thought I'd write. Write about my heart. I am spending this coming weekend with three of the most insanely beautiful women and mothers I know.…

A Summer of Sam.

The air smells of Sam. When my house is quiet, the hum of the airconditioner sounds like Sam. Being inside and being outside feels unbearable. We're one week away until Sam turns two. I've busied myself this month, ignoring the ever so present yet gentle, reminders that I am sad. Not sad like last year.…

Will you miss him with me?

I was working on my May calendar and after dating the first week I stopped and looked at the top and wondered to myself, "May? Is that right?" I thought for a moment maybe I'd skipped a month until I remembered at the doctor's office this afternoon I indeed dated my signature line, May 3,…

Light in the Dark.

This afternoon I was dining at my favorite lunch spot when I happened to look up.  I had never really looked up before, usually just ahead as people walk into the grocery store, or down at the latest book I've chosen to read. It caught me off guard and I caught myself taking pictures of…

The Things We Hold.

Tonight is Ted's monthly board member meeting at our local golf course.  We met at home after work, fixed a quick dinner and I was left with an empty house before the sun fell. I pulled out yoga mat and decided tonight was as good of night as any to practice in the middle of my…

Waiting for You.

I haven't written in awhile.  It's been such a busy beginning of the year.  Next week we're heading on vacation with 8 of our best friends.  I've been looking forward to it since the idea was first mentioned sometime late last year.  April.  Vacation. At the end of the year last year it took pressure…